He's still my prince charming... ^_^
What do I have with me right now? An obsolete computer in front of me, my El Filibusterismo book by my side, a 1 whole illustration board, a pencil, eraser, my cellphone, my own phone in the room, a stable lifestyle, a great mother, a fine education, an ever-seeking enthusiasm, a mind that wanders, a simple perception in life... What else do you expect? A glamorous body, an eye-dropping body figure, a flawless skin, a white complexion? Dream on...
This is so ironic. Despite of all the blessings that I was showered with ever since I was born, I can't really decipher the reason behind jealousy, angst and insecurities. I mean, even the most gorgeous lady on earth could be insecured with her itsy-bitsy flaw in life. What do we really look for in life? What do we really look for in love?
Let's make this straight- girls have always heard the side of guys who always say they only want simple, beautiful,
di kikay, fun girl to be with them. The fact that girls go gaga over glaming up themselves could be stressful yet they do that to please their men. Let's admit it, both sexes expect too much of each other. And as for my part, I have to raise both of my hands when it comes to this topic.
Of course, all girl fantasized when they were young that a prince charming will sweep them off their feet just like the
"A Cinderella Story" flick or that
"The Sweetest Thing" movie which injects the idea of being yourself and there goes your love of your life. Haha. Kind of reminds me of some things. *ehem*
As time goes by, this notion will suddenly become a desperate search to
MATERIALIZE this fantasy. We tend to fall in love with celebrities with dashing smiles and charming looks and neglect the fact that they are still human beings. We look at them as
GODS. *shivers* Don't tell me I'm not telling the truth, guys. I'm simply displaying the truth.
Now, what's my point? I'm in the midst of that I'm-expecting-my-boyfriend-to-be-something-better syndrome but not to the point that is impossible. When I talk to him, unfortunately, I can't open up with him for a lot of reasons. I have a lot of things in mind but then I give way for him. I just want to be silent and listen to him for a while and forget about stuff. For me, I think I'll bore him but I'm removing that thought but I just don't speak up! I realized later on that I was expecting something out of him. I have to admit, I wanted him to be someone better but in terms of values/virtues.
Expectations:* I hope that he will be more firm with his faith. I know he's a better person than he is now.
* Hindi na sana siya tamad. Magkaroon siya ng initiative to be something better. >_<
* I hope he learns how to listen to other people.
* Be open with new things.
* Not be too physically-attached.
* Matuto sana siyang magtipid! Please! O_O
* Lessen the demanding (or should I say dominating) personality. (e.g. homeworks...)
* Magpakabait na po siya... please lang...
* Sana matuto siyang maging creative or imaginative.
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PRIORITIZE!Ahhhh!!!!! Ayoko ng away! Yun lang yun! Ewan...ewan...ewan... yun lang ang hiling ko sa kanya... yun lang po...
But despite of all the misunderstandings, I still love him as
HIM. I just don't know for his part... I don't read minds, just analyze movements. Even though a lot of people think we're odd, I don't give a damn about that. It is enough that he makes me feel special. I do hope that he listens to me kahit na medyo pasemplang-semplang na ako. Hehehe... I know he has that within him and I'm simply waiting for him to be open to me... Hehehe...
MAY TIWALA PA RIN AKO SA IYO! KAYA MO YAN! =^_^=
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by
LekLek on 10.22.2006 @
20:31
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