TREDONE Integration Paper
Who saved Alexis when she was young?This would be the question that you might be asking at the moment. The story is very lengthy but it all began during my younger years in life when our old maid would tend to deceive me with her words. She told me that I was an accident and that my mother does not love me and others alike. Personally, that made a dent in my self-esteem. Other than her, there were people at our province who do that same thing to me as our old maid would tend to do to me which is to scold at me and spank me. Whenever I hear a our old maid raising her voice, I would shake in fear.
Right up to this moment, this fear is still evident in my presence. As a matter of fact, I do not speak out that often people would think of me as a snob or a very unfriendly person. This fear never let me free. It feels like I am still tied at the chains of our old maid's scolding to the point that I could not understand why people treat me that way. It was unfair that my playmates before were enjoying their childhood while I need to go through all the weeping inside our humble apartment at Quezon City then. I even ask myself once in a while if what had happened to me was something just. I may not have the clearest memory of my childhood but one thing is for sure, the pain never let me free from its grasp. It is suffocating.
Thankfully, one day, when I was in the midst of frustration with schoolworks during college, a so-called "fairy" of mine rescued me from looking at life as if it was something to be wasted. This fairy would be my mother and I do not think of any other metaphors that would depict her. It was a blessing from the skies that she was there along the way and I just realized it when I found how important is my mother in my life. If you are asking why she is a fairy, I would be glad to answer that question. She is this simple being that never asked for attention but kept on helping me with all her "magic". She would be patient to me especially when I do not feel well.
I could not pinpoint the exact day when she saved me but all I remember was that she was the one who said, "It's all in the mind". What amazes me is that she also does what she says and that I followed her. She is this Tinker bell with a glowing light that lighted my way to life. I could not ask for any more mother than her. I learned also from her that the true happiness is with God for she would always encourage me to go to mass in order to reconcile with the Father weekly. She would also tell me that God will not give things that cannot be resolved. With this words, I remember my learnings on Jews' view of hope and salvation as well for the Christians.
She was the person who made me realize that there is this so-called "being" that is greater than all of us and so she would always tell me that praying to God would hear my wishes. After all these years that I have been doing it, I couldn't agree more to my beloved mother. She believes that God, being greater than everything else in this world, would help us get through the things that limit us.
I always carried on the hope that she shared with me and I believe that it saved me numerous times in thinking otherwise. This hope is strong and as I have learned from TREDONE, whatever would be your religion, we still believe in the Source that He will provide us with everything we need and all we have got to do is to simply ask Him.
The drawing is a symbolic one. I drew a fairy which I said in this paper as my mother. As you could see, the fairy is holding an orb which would be me. My mother always tell me that I am special in my own way and that makes me a precious being. She saved me from thinking at the dark paths that I might have taken if I was not given the right words to follow with. She gave me the hope that one day, I will embrace the Source and so I must make the most out of what I have here on Earth. I must not be afraid.
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